I get sulky too easily, blame it on the rains i say. Just a weird thought crossed me mind, of events of the past that made me write this poem. Events which weren't the best and hence this poem for all those whom made me cry.
The Sting
They said, 'You don't have the sting.'
I wondered whats the meaning
I realised it meant something
Towards my abilities.
The frustration creeped in
But i refuse to give in
Opportunities will come in
And its time for me to cash in
After all the dreaming and striving
Of achieving something
I will have wings for flying.
And for those who said i ain't got the Sting
God bless you all because am FORGIVING.
Sunday 19 August 2007
Friday 17 August 2007
All
OK! the cribbing part is over. I feel like a new person! what rubbish! what shit! no i don't, no i don't feel any of it. And yet i keep saying it like who's father what goes. I know its childish to behave like this but seriously thinking i have always wanted to discover why is that some people have nothing working for them. If its work, love, family etc etc there are so many that deserve so much more than they do and yet their dues are still pending.
I know it sounds foolish again that am not making a valid point but still i am definite one of them who has ringed out of the portion of LUCK!! and i often wonder that word rhymes with DUCK,SUCK,MUCK,CHUCK and F***. And none of these words are exciting, imagine a silly Duck who was always Sucked by situations to avoid and a wondered hence only in Muck, always Chucked out off because of only one thing, whats that the final and most important ingredient LUCK!!
But then you might say am behaving cynical and things such as this happens. OK agree it happens but for how long and how many times a week, month or year. Then again i stop and think, i am venting this out because am out of LUCK and people who have the LUCK in plenty or at least know what it is will be writing books about it and getting rich.So whats my point again? see i cant make one clear simple point because am running out of IT!!
All i know this has to stop, this stupid thing of LUCK, i am surely over due with it and am waiting for it to come. Coz when it comes i will exploit it in the best way possible.
"LUCK COMES TO THOSE WHO ARE PATIENT"......yea right make it soon if you can!! whoever said this am not bother but ma sure he/she/it has been in some situation like mine.
I know it sounds foolish again that am not making a valid point but still i am definite one of them who has ringed out of the portion of LUCK!! and i often wonder that word rhymes with DUCK,SUCK,MUCK,CHUCK and F***. And none of these words are exciting, imagine a silly Duck who was always Sucked by situations to avoid and a wondered hence only in Muck, always Chucked out off because of only one thing, whats that the final and most important ingredient LUCK!!
But then you might say am behaving cynical and things such as this happens. OK agree it happens but for how long and how many times a week, month or year. Then again i stop and think, i am venting this out because am out of LUCK and people who have the LUCK in plenty or at least know what it is will be writing books about it and getting rich.So whats my point again? see i cant make one clear simple point because am running out of IT!!
All i know this has to stop, this stupid thing of LUCK, i am surely over due with it and am waiting for it to come. Coz when it comes i will exploit it in the best way possible.
"LUCK COMES TO THOSE WHO ARE PATIENT"......yea right make it soon if you can!! whoever said this am not bother but ma sure he/she/it has been in some situation like mine.
Clueless!
Its a starnge feeling, to begin with this should not have been the first posting for my blog but i have to put it down; atleast for me.
Am a journalist in the making and i have dreams like anyone else and i don't like settling for anything less when i can achieve it in large quantity. So this is what happens to me a dreamer but a absolute fighter when working towards my goals.
30th July,2007 i get a call from the TV channel i had been interviewd by to join as an INTERN, when the voice on the phone said that the sport editor of the channel wanted to speak to me, joy was no bound. I jumped off the bed, noted the number and next it was tring-tring on the editor's cell phone. He picked, spoked well also asked me what i felt are the qualities of a journalist etc etc i answered him to the best of my abilities. He said, 'thats good, so when do you wanna join us?'. I did not believe what i was hearing i fumbbled with my words, i was gushed with joy of a toddler for that moment. Later he fixed the date and said you'll have to go through some formalities before you join us with the H.R, after which you can start your internship with us.
Ok! said me and was waiting for the call of the H.R guys to come so i could get my ticket to the TV channel, waited , waited and waited after a couple of reminders to the editor guy he said I WILL GET BACK TO YOU!!this is a catch phrase that should be aware off. Sadly one day after much delay and all the joy that i was going to start off work with a TV channel fizzeld out.
It was the 7th August 2007, when the editor told me that your plans to work with us has not worked out. I was down that day, so down i felt like i was six feet under. What went wrong? why did it go wrong? where did it go wrong? its just not done, i said to myself feeling completely dejected i did not tell this to my folks. But i had to get over it and has a typical women habit i vented it out to my friends over beer n fires. And yes it did help, now that am over it to am extent. I am ready for the next challenge that awaits me.
Karen my cousin told me after this incident,'Natasha, i suggest you put youur eggs in other baskets too and later on a meeting with her has cleared my mind and helped me focus again after that joyful then dark period as to where my piorities are and how should i go about my doing them.
Life is totally unpredictable like they say, not many get a chance to walk into an TV channel and speak to the editor in chief, not many get a chance to feel confident, not many get anything they deserve. And here is me i did get something if nothing, i got a chance to see a TV station, a chance to chat with the news channel editor. Yes, thr work part did not work out but am sure there was a purpose for it happen, something for me to learn for it. And so i know that its just a matter of time before another opportunity will come my way. Being optimistic is the only key!
As for those TV guys who did not hire me, you never know they still have my CV which they can use anytime only if this time i have the TIME for them!!!
Am a journalist in the making and i have dreams like anyone else and i don't like settling for anything less when i can achieve it in large quantity. So this is what happens to me a dreamer but a absolute fighter when working towards my goals.
30th July,2007 i get a call from the TV channel i had been interviewd by to join as an INTERN, when the voice on the phone said that the sport editor of the channel wanted to speak to me, joy was no bound. I jumped off the bed, noted the number and next it was tring-tring on the editor's cell phone. He picked, spoked well also asked me what i felt are the qualities of a journalist etc etc i answered him to the best of my abilities. He said, 'thats good, so when do you wanna join us?'. I did not believe what i was hearing i fumbbled with my words, i was gushed with joy of a toddler for that moment. Later he fixed the date and said you'll have to go through some formalities before you join us with the H.R, after which you can start your internship with us.
Ok! said me and was waiting for the call of the H.R guys to come so i could get my ticket to the TV channel, waited , waited and waited after a couple of reminders to the editor guy he said I WILL GET BACK TO YOU!!this is a catch phrase that should be aware off. Sadly one day after much delay and all the joy that i was going to start off work with a TV channel fizzeld out.
It was the 7th August 2007, when the editor told me that your plans to work with us has not worked out. I was down that day, so down i felt like i was six feet under. What went wrong? why did it go wrong? where did it go wrong? its just not done, i said to myself feeling completely dejected i did not tell this to my folks. But i had to get over it and has a typical women habit i vented it out to my friends over beer n fires. And yes it did help, now that am over it to am extent. I am ready for the next challenge that awaits me.
Karen my cousin told me after this incident,'Natasha, i suggest you put youur eggs in other baskets too and later on a meeting with her has cleared my mind and helped me focus again after that joyful then dark period as to where my piorities are and how should i go about my doing them.
Life is totally unpredictable like they say, not many get a chance to walk into an TV channel and speak to the editor in chief, not many get a chance to feel confident, not many get anything they deserve. And here is me i did get something if nothing, i got a chance to see a TV station, a chance to chat with the news channel editor. Yes, thr work part did not work out but am sure there was a purpose for it happen, something for me to learn for it. And so i know that its just a matter of time before another opportunity will come my way. Being optimistic is the only key!
As for those TV guys who did not hire me, you never know they still have my CV which they can use anytime only if this time i have the TIME for them!!!
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